my story

lately, my mood is jus the same like malaysia’s share market….most of the time is going down….

there are a lot unexpeted things happen. there were sum advice from my seniors: if u wan good things to happen on u, u must keep urself happy, always cheer up…

but it seem like all this not happen on me..=P

from wat i observe about myself, i think im improving alre…im no longer like las time, hard to get myself back to the mood. but now, it seem like nothing can make me feel upset, but only my goals n futures.

most of the time i feel sad or stress is when i cant achieve my target. i thought i had planned well, but it seems like went wrong all the time. i believe i cant do nething bout dat but except try n try again.

i learnt sumthing new from my Sir : Taekwondo is  a sport.  sport is to practice, but not learn. to practice, u must do it more often so dat u can get a good result.    I think it is a same theory to my goals or targets! is sumthing i must go n do more often, so dat i can achieve it earlier.  Las time, i used to be always sit down, think n plan how to do it. but in the end, it didnt realy achieve 100%. so now, i think is better i change to another new way..=)

There are stil lot of things waiting me to do, there are still lot of people looking at me, putting their hope on me, i Knew dat!!! i shouldnt let myself disappointed anymore, i shouldnt let other people disappointed on me anymore!!!=)

the more reject, the more failure, will make me become stronger and stronger!!!

to be continue…

haha….again, left out my blog for sometime d…bc with my life lately…

suppose class end at 3pm, but lecturer was mc today, so class finish at 2pm, and need to sit in the library till 6pm for my taekwondo training.

this few weeks, enjoying my life with holidays, which is the things im looking forward the most:

1) went to sungkai with xiao chyi, fwu zian, ngar shien, su mei.

2) went to A famosa water world with Kee siong, Mun loong, wen seng, ken hou, chooi teng.

3) watched few movies during CNY with frens like xiao chyi, ngar shien, and so on…

4) yum cha, shopping, lepaking with frens….

so enjoy those moment!!! so miss those moment. but the fact is, i cannot have that kind of life everyday. if i do, mayb i will think how good it will be if i have more work to do…

the trip i enjoy the most was went to sungkai hot spring with xiao chyi, ngar shien, fwu zian and su mei. when reach there, is around 2pm….base on my previous experience, i thought v’ll have not enough time to enjoy there. wan to go hot spring, boil eggs, then cold water pool as well…..is kinda rush. but everything change after we jus start at the hot spring, is raining!!!=P the feeling is damm nice….imagine, u in the hot spring, the over u head is raining, and there are few of frens who you really wan to spend time with…GREAT!!!!!!! That is not the best part…the best part is during on our way back…v chat a lot…and these four gals, i really wan to thx to them a lot!!! after chat with them, it really help me to let go wat i should let go since long time ago….after the conversation with them, it remind me again, no point keeping the feeling or memory anymore, but i should look forward, where is the place i wan to be is most important!!!=)   hahaa…..Thx a lot…..

then for the melaka trip, it is the most excited trip!!! i went to the water world when i was 17++….i stil remember dat i played the high speed body slide, where v’ll slide down from a tower around 6 floor high…summore v can c the tower beside the highway…i have a bad experience dat time: when i slide down, my body was floating…then land down, with high speed…it really make me scare…wahaha…. But that day, me n my fren, v set a target, v must play atleast 5 rounds or else cannot go back!!! sincerely, after the 1st round, it really make me think back the feeling of scare again….but after c an uncle around 60++ years old, i tel myself, i’ve no excuses for myself not to go for it alre…..haha…2nd time, i feel scare+ excited; 3rd time, excited+enjoy; 4th time, enjoy + tiring; 5th time, tiring….   but i do enjoy this 5th times, atleast i had overcome the feeling where i might fly off the slide..but now im stil alive here n writing this blog..=P hahaa…

tell u all bout sum movie that i had watch during CNY. The movie that i enjoy the most is Andy lau’s new movie: Look for a star.

In this movie, is about Andy lau, his secreatary, and his driver love’s story.  this movie make me feel very touch because of the way it describe the meaning of happiness :   > this statement + the conversation with the gals during sungkai trip, make me more clear with wat i wan…wahaha…. i jus love the movie!!! if u got time, go n watch with ur gf, who noes, u all will understand the meaning of love…and also be more appreciate to ur loved 1.=)

all the things that happen in this 2 week affect me a lot. i become more motivated in my work now. there is a target make me more motivated in doing everything. to achieve the target, i must change myself, change my bad habit, so dat it can become more perfect…..

To be continue…

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Back to the previous incident, where i saw an accident involve with a lorry with a motor  :

i was the 1st person who get over to de motor cyclist, who is lying on the road side after being hitted by the lorry….his face, between mouth n nose is broken and bleeding, he was fainted dat time. From his finger, i suspect he was over shock with the incident that happen and he was cramp.

Slowly, there r more n more ppl coming towards the motor cyclist…some of them are dialing to the hospital….some of them are discussing how the accident happen ( stupid!!!! not helping but stand there n discuss whose fault ), some of them try to help in traffic so that the ambulance can be reach faster. The lorry driver and 2 of the foreign worker dat with him were jus stand aside, they are in confuse, wat they need to do…..

this is most interesting part:  i try my best to calm down the ppl around the motor cyclist so dat not to move him any more, and wait for the ambulance to come….slowly every1 were follow and keep on dial to the emergency number and hospital to urge them try to come faster….the motor cyclist started awake!!!!!   He react with me by moving his eye….but from my observation, he is stil not sure wat is happening….me n 1 of my fren, nagadaven, try to ask him to calm down, not to stand up and jus wait for the ambulance, but he refuse until both of us hold him and not to let him stand up. guess because too pain, he got no energy to against with us…after awhile, he try to move his body from side to side again… suddenly, i realise sumthing unusual on his left leg! his pants is broken and i can c sumthing is white colour is on his leg…. when he turn his body from side to side, i can saw dat his left leg was swinging….gosh!!!!he left leg bone might be come out from the joint part of his knee!!!

i search from his pocket to try to get sum info to inform his family, too bad…inside his wallet got only driving license, no IC as well. from far away, i saw an indian guy, on his waist was hanging a walkie-talkie…from his out look, he look like a tow-man…. he come to the motor cyclist, where me n nagadevan keep on try to hold him on the road, then yelling at all of us, ” where is the lorry driver??? where is his lorry’s key?? take it!! dun let him run away!!!”  after awhile, he yell at us again, ” all of you stupid is it??? why let him lying there, and wait for ambulance, y not send him to clinic….why only stand there and c he is sufering!!!???!!!”   then every1 is changing, asking each other where is ur car, whose car is nearer…. me n naga looking at each other, dunno wat to do now…..

i thought of wan to tell the indian guy dat from wat i learn, v shouldnt move the motor cyclist cos v dunno his internal injury…v dunno whether there are any broken bone on his chest or not, if got, mayb he will in more critical condition cos moved by us. But in the end, i didn tel him dat, he seem like very “experience” with this kind of situation…ordering every1 of us who at there to lift the cyclist up…i stand to aside….i dun dare to touch him, i scare wat is in my mind will happen on him!!!

then they send the cyclist to the clinic…..the end……..

i consult with a doc bout dis kind of situation, at the end, i become more “mao dun” now!!!!

this is wat the doc tell me:

” wat u did n in ur mind is correct, but sumtimes, v cannot control the ppl around us, cos mayb v’ll face sum dangerous situation if v against with them (mayb wat she mean is this kind of ppl will beat us if v didnt follow their instruction). i meet with this kind of situation several time, but i choose not to stop my car and help although im a doc, cos sumtimes, when ppl know dat u r doc, they will have a higher expectation on u, but everything might b seem wrong! sumtimes, mayb by the time u wan to help, but is alre too late….”

wat u guys will think bout dis statement??? for me, if on the view of a doc, is right….he/she might be facing a dangerous situation if he/she cant save the victim….every1 will blame him/her….

if on the view of the victim, is not fair for him, his/her injury might become more serious if couldnt get a hand from a doc or other ppl…..

the las question, is that the FIRST AID COURSE dat organise nowadays, really can help ppl in facing this kind of situation?? for those who had attend this kind of course, are u sure u r ready to help those victim when face this kind of situation?? before i meet, i always tel myself, no worries, must have self-confidence with myself, im sure i can help him! but on dat day, a lot of things seems went wrong, and u r not only need to help the victim, yet u need to control the ppl around there…is a tough task!!!!!!!

To be continue….

is about 7 months i din update my blog alre…=)

Class finish early today, make me sitting alone here and surfing net, but doing nothing, except checking facebook, mail box, and frendster…..=(

yesterday was 4th Interclub Taekwondo Championship. I send to student, Kang wen and Ezzul for Poomsae event….suprisely, kang wen won a silver medal.=) it is a great start for my student who gain little bit of experience in the national level championship. but at a same time, quite disappointed cos ezzul didn get any medal, and in my opinion, they deserve to get 1st and 2nd places if compare with others!!! sigh…….

back to dis few months, there were a lot of things happen in my life:……………….

few weeks ago, i saw an accident happen right in front of me…… the accident is between a motorbike with a lorry from Syabas…till now, the moment where the cyclist been knock by the lorry and fly away bout 1 meter, his broken mouth and leg, the moment he wan to stand up but he didnt realise dat his leg is broken, still very clear in my mind!!!!  dunno how to describe the feeling on dat day, i almost meet with accident for 3 times, when im on the way to slim river to teaching class and on the way to batu 5 for black belt class…..

i’ve start taking a medication from a doc from UPM….the whole project is for 10 weeks….. till today, is alre 4th week. so far so good….not sure is the medication effect or jus because i’ve change the way of my mind thinking with life….now, im not so stress with those minor things anymore….the sad memory dat happen at the past oso is slowly let go…..or i should say, time is the best medicine!!

this year’s mooncake festival will be the most unforgetable!!! 1 of my cousin brother was past away. he is jus 40++….the las time i meet him is during my eldest bro’s wedding dinner… the las words i talk with him is ” do u enjoy the meal….”   now no more chance to c him jus only think in my heart…he left his wife with 3 kids….on the whole week of the funeral, his sons and daughter is very cool down, but all the relatives, including me, cannot accept wat is happening…..the most silliest thing is, sum of them blame him why not go for operation and cause this ending…..but in my mind, im sure he had his reason…he is not like s irresponsible s they say… from this, it make me realise, life is short, life is no U-turn, u must do wat u can n wat u wan, say wat u wan to say, appreciate all the moment with ur family n ur love 1!!!! u will never know wat will be happen at the next second!!!!

All the things dat happen lately really change me a lot: i must do wat ever i can in the shortest time, put the rumours to aside, but focus on wat u wan….when ppl spread rumour bout u, that means ppl care u, but jus in other way, friendship is important, but when related with the benefit or future, sum of them might choose the benefit and their own future rather than the friendship, be calm down every moment, dun simply take an action on certain things, or else, u will regret for ur whole life in taking such action…..

To be Continue….

today, a special day for me, my birthday.

im 22 start from today. it was nice this year….celebrate with the committees, from rawang, kepong, sinar bintang, raja abdullah……..

you all are the greates fren and the good team!!!! thank you!!!

back to the topic, this year, no birthday party like las year. i was sitting at the mamak stall with 1 of my fren, Uncle LU, watching Man.U VS Arsenal, while discussing about our goal in the future. the time is passing without our realise. i only noe is past 12 when my phone is starting receiving wished from all my frens. so touch when receive their wishes. thanks to all my frens!!!!

feeling great, yet feeling lost… today is my birthday…. but wat i wan to do?? haha….dunno…that is y now sitting in front here n writting dis blog.=P

wat i should do?? chatting wit wai mun now….she is having exam…then check my frendster, surfing youtube to find out the Koryo pattern, cross side kick is cross in front or cross to the back, listening music, stay the same by joey, and bla bla bla….

to all my frens, thanks for ur wishes…thanks for ur presents….thanks for everything!!! feel so great to have u guys in my life!!!

to be continue….

yesterday was xiao chen’s birthday. haha.. same day with April Fool, so cham…. called her around 11.30pm n sing the "happy birthday" song to her. Guess wat…. she complaint cos dat is jus a small part of the song…not the whole song…=( haha…

so great…dis year, i get to have a new challenge, to organise my taekwondo club’s yearly tournament. v have get dis info since 2 to 3 weeks ago…i was so excited, but at the same time, i feel the stress back to my shoulder again. Dis championship is a yearly big project of our taekwondo club. V must not make ne mistake. luckily, v’ve a very strong young men n ladies team. they are really good. back to the camp that v organised las year, the really give me a big hand to make the camp success. so for this time, i beleive they can performe and coorperate with each other very well.

right now……..i dunno wat am i thinking in my mind. championship, mid year skul training camp, mid year charity work, year end motivation camp, then my sales, my car, my bike, my camera, my study, my FUTURE…………

im starting worry this since las year. 12 more days, im going to be 22 years old. wat i’ve achieve? how will my future going be? how bout my family? my brothers?my sister???? there r so many things im worrying.

am i thinking too much??? or that is jus part of our life??

ne1 can share with me bout this??………=(

to be continue…

is been a long time i didnt write my blog.

there are a few things wan 2 share with every1 of u:

las year, successfully organised the 1st motivation camp,              THE JOURNEY.   It was a really nice experience with me n my team members. v have really no idea how to organise motivation camp at all. from the beginiing until the end of camp, im so grateful that i have such a team member who willing help me all this while!

Kai meng, Mahvin, shu yee, Irene, ken Hou, Yuen Huoi, Jia Sheng, Wen Sheng, Kee Siong….. and so on….Thanks a lot! ( not to forget those Choi Hung and angeline )

we spend our time with all the participants ( majority is primary skul) in that 3 days, full with our activities. from flying fox to abseiling, then go for night walk at jungle, raft, motivation activities, sharing and team building. now, i stil miss those 3 days. i  heard from 1 of my instructor said, sum of the parents very glad with our camp, they hope to c such motivation camp at end of this year. by the time i heard dis, i have a very good feeling! i can feel dat all the time, money n energy that v have used on the camp is apreciated by the parents!!!so GREAT!!!!

las two days, it was another huge project for me: Third Rawang Taekwondo Championship.

this year’s championship is much more challenging, where me n my team: Kai meng, Jia sheng, yuen huoi, ken hou and wen sheng, prepare for the championship in a month of time. Dis is because v blif with wat our instructor said: with the team work of every1 of u, v r not only can organised Zon rawang championship, but oso a national championship. All dis is depends on whether u wan or not.

after listen dat, i have a burning desire to take dis challenge. at a same time, i apply the theory dat i learnt from the book, << The Secret >>. This bok really help me a lot. not only help me in getting more sponsor, but oso overcome some of the las minute changes of the championship.

although the championship is not so perfect compare with las 2 years, but at the end, v learnt a lot of new experience in how to overcome problem and oso prevent some unexpected problem to happen before is too late.

is time for me to leave here. need to get back to my work.

i need to rush for my goal dis year!!!

Think, Beleive, Receive….

Too be continue…

Attend chee ching’s bro wedding dinner las night.

thought it will b a very boring night cos only me n yun ling were attend. Suprisely, both of us n my bro’s fren were sitting at a same table.

the dinner start at 8pm. it was great. we make jokes…laugh…

20minutes later…1 of my bro’s fren, spottedpretty gal who serve for red wine. it was the time where our table start to drink red wine. at the beginning, it took a long time to finish upa cup. bcos of jokes, he is getting faster n faster finish up each cup of red wine.

at the same day, my bro’s was moving into his new house.

early in the morning, every1 of us wake up n went to his new house. finally, after a long time of cleaning n decoration, the house is done.

too bad…i was working dat day..i stay at his home till 7.30am, then need to get to office for a course about ISO 9001 and to learn how to bcome an auditor. sigh…jus like insurance law, every sentence is different and every sentence is the point, where v can use it to give a CAR ( Corrective Action ………..) to the particular department if they didnt follow the rules.

i back at home around 2am…bcos of the tired day, rushing here n there for my bro’s house warming, working, then wedding dinner; and the effect of the red wine, it make me sleep so well….

to be continue…

November, is a lucky month for me! i feel is like a turning point in my life.

1st, i got a new laptop. is been a long time i live without my laptop. as i said in my blog, my life really different now after have a laptop. it help me a lot in my work yet my entertainment too!!!

2nd, i’ve succesful interview for a new job, work as production coordinator in a frame’s factory. now, i got the feeling like back to form 5…where i am my skul’s headprefect and several club’s president. the experience dat i gain during dat time help me a lot now. every morning, i have a target : go back to office, make a better planning, so that our department will increase the production and achieve the target of the month!=)

today, after have a discussion with my supervisor, v have a same view, to make a huge change in the production line! therefore, v need 2 start to do sum research. A research dat can change the current situation.

haha….i have my 1st mission!after a week with all the document, finally, i can have more time in the factory, get close with the production line worker, understand their needs…to noe the details or better way to increase the productivity of the company.:)

Now, i feel like i jus released from the prison!!! haha..sound like MICHAEL SCORTFIELD!!!!=)

to be continue…

Las 2 week, jus right after i finish my usual night meeting at GE, i went to McD with my frens. Dat night meeting was a terrible meeting for me!!! dis is the 1st time i realise wat is called office politic! so angry with those party who keep on blaming others and keep on looking for ur mistake to point it out during meeting! the more worst is, those who ordering them to do dat at the back is more terrible, dare to talk bout others, but dun dare to stand out! pity those who been using by them.

forget bout dat…now im starting get to use with dat. all i need 2 do is jus do my best, so dat there will b nothing to let them talk. another is, always remain as a party that wun allies with other, always stand on the middle. =P hahha….. i work, jus bcos wan 2 have a better future n help others, not to involve in all this wasting time energy’s politic.:P

During at McD, v were so relax. haha…with the voucher dat v got, v ate so much things! like me, i ate a set of Mc Chicken, then free a Fillet-o-FIsh!!! feel so good cos can have so much of things to eat with a chea price! =P

good moment never stay for a long time. while enjoying my last burger, i receive a call from my sis. from her voice, i can feel like sumthing bad is happened.:( she keep on ask me when am i, wat im doing n wat time i can reach home. after answer all the questions, i ask her wat had happened, she said: grandma is in critical, v need 2 rush back to her house asap.

i was so shocked yet, i stil can manage my feeling. not like the previous time, when i receive call from my family where my grandfather past away, i cried. during dat time, i was having my prefect board’s motivation camp. mayb dis time, bcos i alre have the experience, where my grandma "alive" end of year 2006, i told myself, no matter wat happen, is jus part of our life. accept it with a open minded.

bout my grandma, she is 98 dis year. b4 dis, she is very healthy. i stil remember, my mum will  bring me n my sis to her house during our skul holiday when i was stil studying at primary skul. we will spend bout a week of time there. during dat time, my grandma will bring us to the market, having breakfast together, chit chat for a long time…. during evening, i will accompany her to pray "la duk gong", where is about 50m away from her house.

all this moment, now only can bcome flash back in my memory.

like wat is said, dat is jus part of human’s life. human, is so weak! no matter how rich u r, how good u r, how clever u r, how talented u r, stil 1 day, u’ll reach dis stage, where u’ll leave ur family or ur beloved 1.

to be continue…