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las week was MSSS TAekwondo Championship at matsushida stadium. although the event is 2 days,but i only go to b the refree on the sunday.:)  actually, i feel is quite happy. is like another gathering for all of us. then meet with SIr Bala. same old him, like to make jokes as well. (^ _ ^)    The game was running smooth until evening. Got a team which is from Subang, they got 3 players dat not really gud in luck, when declare winner due to same score but they lose. Their coaches, team manager n even their supporter were angry bout dat!!! but 1 thing i really not satisfy, do they really noe the rules of sparing? or they only simply teach their student the sparing skills without knowing the rules??!!?? [ i guess this only they will noe ]     but the worst 1 is, got 1 round the support throw a water bottle from 1st floor to the judge!!! hey, v r trained to b the judge!!!not train to b the target for them to throw things on us!!! i pity the gal, the bottle almost fall on her!!!summore all this is not the judges’s fault!!!i really hope their coaches and their supporters understand 1 thing, if they really hope their player win the game, y dun the player get more clear point to defeat the opponent? y must same score? when declare winner, is DEPENDS ON THE ANGLE DAT THE JUDGES CAN C!!! NOT COACHES!!! IF DEPENDS ON COACHES, Y DUN V AS THE JUDGES, STAND UP N LET U ALL SIT DOWN TO JUDGE THE GAME??!!?? THEN U all’L B THE JUDGE, THE COACH, OR EVEN PLAYER OSO!!! come on….u all r adult, u all mature enuf… stop argue with that kind of stupid reason where saying v s the judges bias la!!! i even judge my club mate lose when they r really dun have the quality to win!! so in this situation, wat u’l think? SIGH…

Monday was my 1st day back to college!! sigh… finally dis day had arrive! so upset! on Monday morning, i woke up at 5.30am….i hope all dis is a dream!!! too bad, is not a dream but is a fact which i need 2 face it!!!:(     from monday to friday, my life in college is jus the same, no matter the class is 1 or 2 hours, but the lecturer come in to talk for 10 to 15 minutes then v can go back alre… wasting our time n even petrol!!! especially on friday, all the class cancel then v go back, by the time i reach home, then i receive a call from my fren where he told me dat v need 2 go back to class for module registeration!!! it took 15 minutes from my rented house to my class, so force to rush back, cos i really hope dat i take PLC [ progamable logic controller] as 1 of my subject in this semester, after this i’l have no chance alre…:(

at house, dis is wat happen!! las thursday, 1 of my fren who staying at slim river for quite a long time tel us dat actually de house dat v rent is haunted!!! las semester, 2 of my frens even saw n "DISTURB" by those "things" at nite time!!!! summore is at the room dta im staying now!!! it really make me scare!!!! for the whole nite, i didnt sleep well!!! althought dat nite is hot, but stil i cover my blanket cos i feel more safe like dat…. then i put on my fren’s mp3… i dun wan 2 hear nething from outside!!!!:(     i really hope in veery soon time, i can face it strongly without ne fear!!!

On dat nite bout 10pm ++, v all went out to yum cha at a mamak stall near by our house. 6 of us  + antother 2 gal were talking happily!!! but then, come a so " LA LA boy" to the mamak stall!!! u wun blif dis, he is not blind, but he wear sunglasses at nite time, wear a cap, n earphones…. he is quite fat oso!!! can u imagine how he look like?? =P       when the time v leave, he run to us n ask for the phone number which 1 of the gal, the gal dun bother bout him. then he ask my fren who fetch the gal where she live, n my fren point a direction. suprisely, he say dis to my fren : " y dun i fetch her go back? ur house direction not same with her 1!"    wow…….i thought b4 this i alre meet with the worst " LA LA boy", but really cant blif at dis kind of ulu place got a guy than more " LA LA " than KL 1!!!!

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hi….thx for spending ur time to read my blog….

sigh….2 more days to go my poly will open!!!is time to start my 5 semester…:(  after having my holiday for almost 3 months [ not including my "honeymoon" practical training for 5 months], now really not in study mood alre…:( wondering how i’l attend all my class.???sleeping?playing??

not in gud mood dis few days..there fore…for this episode is dis short only…:’(

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today, after went to hospital to help my dad to take his x-ray report,while on the way back,suddenly in my mind, i feel like wan 2 go to the location where the incident dat had happened to kim kian..

after take sumtimes searching for the way, finally i reach there..there were reporters doing sum interview at the location where the robber commit suicide… wat i can feel, there r so quiet after the incident….it seem like every1 at there stil remember wat happened on 11/7/06. every1 stil concern bout the case…but the environment there was very quiet…i feel like it still cover with the sadness for losing the young guy!!!

then, i went back. although today is alre the third day the incident happened, but most of the ppl around me stil the same, critic why the victim take dat action to chase him, fight with the robber, carry so much money alone, and so on!!!summore got sum of them say he is so stupid for helping his bos to do such dangerous job!

but did those ppls try to think from kim kian side?is dis wat he wan at the end? if he noe dis’l happen, will he take dis task?y those ppls dun think dat he is so responsible? y must only think bout the -ve things???y must only critic bout him!!!

all i can do, keep in my heart…calm down myself..but i feel is very unfair for him!!! ne how, jus hope the time will wash all dis -ve critic or comment away very soon…so dat he can rest in peace.

by the time im stil worry bout my dad’s health problem, at 11-7 morning, 11 am, i receive a call from cheong yun seong, he asked me whether i know wat had happened to chin kim kian or not?in my mind, is dat he accident n admit to hospital alre…( cos dis is very common to happen to teenager )…. but then he tel me that he got a news dat kim kian jus pasted away on 10.30 am at setapak cos shooted by robber!!!:’(

kim kian, i knew him when i join SMK Seri Garing taekwondo class.He is very friendly, kind, helpful, tolerate person…. last time, me, loong hin n him always went out yum cha or went to genting. he is very seldom feel down, most of the time when u c him he will make jokes with u to make u laugh!!!

wat a shock news!!! 1st thing i did was, i contact with loong hin, a fren dat really closed n worked 2gether with kim kian…he tel me dat the news is truth!!! when i heard dat, my mind was blind!!!God……why u so cruel!!!y u take him away from us…

then i watch every news on tv on dat day…they reported it.each time they say the victim’s name, i ask myself,is dat jus a dream>???come on, wake up!!!stop dreaming!!! but, dat is de fact!!!! for de whole day, i stay at home, not going newhere, even cancel all the appointment with my client due to my emotion not so good.although i’l feel uneasy when c the news, but stil i wish dat the reporter wil tel me dat is jus misreading bout the name, is not CHIN KIM KIAN….too bad, it didnt happen.

jus now, i went to his funeral at jinjang…by the time i reach there, i can c a lot of his frens reach there alre…is around 100++…straighly, i go n meet with loong hin, n he point to me which way i should go to c kim kian for las time!!! i take a deep breath, went to the hall!!!i can c there were all my secondary frens there,hugging each other n cry when they r looking at kim kian’s body!!!:’(  i go near by him n look at him…his face…his eye…wat i can feel is, his face impression is telling every1 dat he is stil very confused with wat had happened to him!!!he dunno nething!!! ( T _ T )

my feeling had change,not like the time when i receive call bout the news nemore…now i noe dat the fact is jus in front of me!!!he is closing his eye,lying there,no breath, no smile, no anything!!!!

i went out from the hall, i cant stay there nemore!!! is enuf for dat!!! i jus lost a gud fren!!! but y??y must b him?? they got routine to send the money to the bank, but y the robbers must choose him n even more wan 2 kill him!!!

i tel myself, be strong, but my mind is so lost…he is my gud fren, v went genting together, train taekwondo together…….but all dis now is jus left memory only..it wun repeat or happen nemore!!!

once again, b4 i leave the hall to go back home, i walk near by him, c his face for a relly last time!!!

KIM KIAN, YOU WILL ALWAYS IN MY MIND!!!YOU WILL ALWAYS IS MY GUD FREN!!!

may god will take care him n u’l bless us everyday….hope dat every1 of ur frens n families will recover from de pain n sadness very soon!!! (T_T)

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on 10/7 nite,when i was chatting with Mr. Loh ( my Taekwondo instructor) regarding my match on Sunday, suddenly my bro call me urgently…

i check it out,then my bro say my dad having breathing problem!!!:( all i can c is, my dad is trying his best to breath, but he couldnt!!! summore his face colour is turning bcome red!!! i rush beside my dad, asking him to breath slowly n calm down… but stil de same!my sis saw wat is happening, she went to the bak n tel my mum dat bathing.

then my bro suggest to send him to hospital…i sugest to send him to gleneagle intan hospital due to my dad got a hospitalization medical card. but then he start feel better alre… he ask me to apply sum chinese medicine ( fung you) on his back so dat he feel better. but then, v stil decide to go to hospital for checking!!

but at the end, the doc say he is fine…nothing wrong, mayb jus twisted his back n cos him hard to breath.

neway, my dad is 53 years old alre…he had work very hard for our family!!!i really dun wan ne bad thing happen!!!" Dad, i really worry bout ur HEALTH!!! " i really hope to tel him bout dis, but at the end, im speakless…dunno y… i’l only keep in my heart.

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2 days ago, i went to take part in a taekwondo championship which is organise by MGTF [ Malaysia Global Taekwondo Federation ] at Shah Alam Polytechnic. i bring another 4 of my frens to join the championship… 5 of us were really gud fren n v’ve alre learnt taekwondo for a quite long times….

v r very happy on the way to there.. v talk bout our strategy on how to defeat our opponent…hahaha…. nice talk n nice idea!!!

the game start at 2 pm, n is the individual sparring event. in the hall, v r quite special cos 5 of us were the only chinese participants n plus another chinese guy, which is my elderest brother. start from my fren, kee siong, after he fought, thought he’l b win!!! but when declare winner, the judge, declare to his opponent!!! so disappointed!!! v very sure dat he score a lot of points, but stil he lose… then the begining of our bad luck coming… ken hou, chien won, mahvin n me, v all lose oso!!! espsecially mine….i thought i’ve a wonderful game n i score a lot from my opponent, when declare winner, im ready to allow for the judge to raise my rite hand s im the victory, but suddenly he raise my opponent’s hand!!! my frens n bro were confused!!!wats wrong???wat happened??nobody noes…. i’ve to say gudbye to the gold medals for individual category!!!:’(

but then, my bro advise us dat, when start the team event, dun think so much… if not mistaken, v’l lose oso due to our uniform is writen WTF…n they r MGTF…is a different group of taekwondo, wat v can do is jus to fight our best…v’ve paid RM20 for the tournament is to beat others, not fot others to beat us!!! so our conclusion is, no matter win or lose, enter the ring, assume the opponent is a air bag n use ur most powerful kick to fight with them…win or lose dun care..but jus wan 2 let them noe dat we r stil the best although v didnt win ne GOLD medals!!!

on the team event, i s the 1st player to fight…n my opponents is from kedah. his punk hair style make me feel like really wan 2 K.O. him… when the begining of the match, i punch or i kick i’l get warning from the judge cos is too powerful!!! (nonsense!!!if not powerful then beter ask them go back home to fight with those small kids!!!) after almost 30 seconds, i get a punch from dat guy til my nose is bleeding…but he didnt get ne warning!!! y?? dun tel me dat is a non-powerful punch!!!then how come my nose bleeding… i argue with the judge, n he gave me another warning cos talk so much!!! y bro come n help me to stop my nose bleeding. wat i noe is the judge chase him out of the ring, but stil my bro dun care bout him! ( im proud with my bro!!! ) then at the end of match, once again, i lose!!!! :(      then chien won n ken hou score their opponent nicely n accurately make them win the game, so our team is qualify to the final in team event!!!

when final time, v jus finish semi-final n i request for a short break…then the judge say : "No!!! v stil need 2 continues the game!!! i dun care u jus finish ur semi-final. if u wan, u can send other players!!!" sigh….afte hearing dis, so disappointed!!!but then stil they give us 1 n half minutes rest!!!..:)   when the game start, my coach , En. Shahrifuddin come to me n say dat my opponent is a ex-national player!!! wow…national player!!! im so glad i can meet him!!! i can fight with a national player!!!:P the begining of the game i do quite well, but stil i always get warning due to my punch but when my opponent use his punch, he scored!!! (really dun understand wat is their rules!!!) after sumtimes, i cant forget dat moment!!! bcos to concentrate to puch his head, i didnt guard my stomach, then get a kick from him at my stomach..bcos his kicking is quite power oso, i cant really get breath!!!i lay on the floor.wat i remember is my bro come to me n trying to help me to relax…once again, the judge chase him out…i stil remember dat my bro ask me whether stil wan 2 fight or not, n i say dun wan cos is really too pain!!!then the judge start to count until 10!!! when he count til 4, i stand up n walk back to the ring, i feel better. wat im thinking is i should give up or not??i scored him quite a lot alre!!!my chance to win is 70%!!! then i decide not to give up n continue to fight!!!!:) when the jude start back the game, i really scare!!! is scare i’l get kick again or get punch til my nose bleeding!!!when he attack me, i run!!!until got a 1 time, where i get to focus, i block his kick n punch twice on his head!!! wow!!!!nice punch, i can c his eye were bcome red alre cos my punch!!!!but,again i get warning!!! [nvm, win lose doesnt matter!!!] i think mayb cos this, he is a biot angry!from his face, he looks like wan 2 punch me back…but then my frens n bro say the time is gonna over, nething jus run!!!:P   hahaahaha….i think bout dat too..dats y i continue my game!!!!when the time keeper blow the wiser, the judge stop the game from far away, i feel better, finally i finished the game by not being K.O. by my opponent. but then,dunno y, i saw dat my  opponent stil trying to to a chopping kick to my head…i run to my bro n my frens!!! im very sure dat im out of the ring together with my bro alre. my bro block the player for me…then the judge stop the player oso n call the organiser to come, which is my coach. he questioning my coach who is bro ( the judge dunno wat is my relationship with my bro ) , my coach said dat my bro i my coach. then the judge ask whether the organiser noe dat he got the rite to disqualify our team due to my bro action to stop the player!!! hey, come on!!! if he didnt stop the player, then i’l get injured lo!!!where is the judge’s brain??!!?? then my coach say, nvm, disqualify only!!!!v dun care bout the win or lose oso!!! but i jus dun understand, why they wan 2 send my bro out of the hall until the game is declare the winner!!!

i go n search for my bro,i really appreciate with wat he had did!!! although our team had disqualify, but v dun care much,cos v noe dat our performance is much more better than wat they thinking!!!then 5 of us dat take part in the game was told to go n meet the presiden of MGTF on the stage!!! wow…cos dis incident, we r famous alre!!!even the presiden oso wan 2 c us!!!then he lecture us again…."win or lose doesnt important, but the skil n the teamwork come 1st!!" sigh… have been heard all this long time n many time alre!!!:)  then after the tournament finish, got a lot of coaches from other states come n ask us where v from n who is our instructor, v proud to say dat " v r from RAWANG!!! n our instructor is MR.LOH!!!" :P   the coaches say dat v played a nice game!!! they hope v can join the tournament dat they organise in end of the year n in the future!!! then got sum of the parents oso said dat v did a good job n it was a really nice game they had seen!!! they oso say dat v should b the team dat get gold medal, but nvm, everybody got eye to c!!! no need 2 care bout them!!!

when on the way back home, in my mind, i think bout the moment my bro block the player for me!!!i was so proud with him!!! now only i noe he oso will protect me!!!i feel so happy cos his action n he with us for de whole day of the tournament!!!! from this tournament, i can feel dat our frenship n teamwork gain a lot!!! jus imagine, in the hall got 200 of ppl, ur group r the only 6 persons from other academy, wat u need 2 do is to build up the teamwork n work it out together!!!is not dat easy in a short time, but stil v made it!!!!

again, thx bro!!! thx to chien won, mahvin, ken hou and kee siong!!!!v’l always a team!!!

p/s : damm it!!!i feel so pain with my chest, nose , legs, n hands until today!!! ( ^_^ )

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[ took at starbucks cafe , firemen jus reached ]

on the 8/7/06, is my 1st RFP [ register financial planner ] class at head office, great easter………i need 2 attend the course for every saturday for whole month, start at 9am to 5pm.

the class start at 9 am….the lecturer came in then blah blah blah….n then blah blah blah for almost 30 minutes….suddenly, i heard dat fire alarm was ringing….in my mind, y such a big company oso having the same problem at my hostel, which is the alarm fault, ringing without ne reason….. even the lecturer oso like dun care…after 5 minutes, the alarm stil ringing…the lecturer ask 1 of the participant to went out to check n c so dat v wun b in "barbeque"!!! the indian guy wnet out n check n he said dat every1 is leaving…guess is really FIRE!!!!

wow….i thought 1 of our RFP training course… so every1 oso like selamba only, dun care at all…in the staircase, stil make jokes…laugh…then when out of the office, i realise dat even the shopping mall bside the office oso close!!!then i make a  conclusion, dis is not a training!!!is real 1……:)

me n my fren find a place for a sit at starbucks cafe outside de shopping mall. every1 were talking bout dis inciden…then from far away, i can heard dat got police car alarm n from the fire department oso…:)

cant blif it!!!they can act so fast!!! not more than 10 minutes they reach alre…then the firemen went to check n 1 of my fren 8 the news… he heard from other dat the fire was start from a shop call Alexis [ a place for rich guy to drink wines ].

bcos of this inciden, our 1st class cancel! then the fact is, v need 2 replace our 1st class in the coming day!!! so cham!!!but nehow, dis is my 1st time in the situation "RUN FOR YOUR LIFE"!!! so nice yet so fun!!! every1 very cooperate!!! luckily no1 injured in this incident……..

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2day went to watch footbal between england n portugal!!!is my 1st time sitting at mamak stall with my frens n watch the match from the begining til the end.it was so excited!!!but stil cant 4get bout the "long legs" from england….he looks like my fren…[jack] funny with every movement!!!:)

my fren watch til she cry….cry cos england lose alre…guess mayb she sakit hati lo!!!but dat is the game ma…sure got win n lose, all v can do is jus pray for them to  have a better luck in the coming world cup!!!

I did sumthing really bad dis week….i realy dunno y..i hurt her so much…without thinking, i jus shout n scold her, hurt her so much!!from her face, i can c dat she is really disappointed with me alre..but i jus cant understand, y she cant accept de way im doing my jobs??y i must follow her way???i got my own reason…im stil young,no experience, studying…i dun wan 2 bring back my working stress cos dun wan 2 make others worry, but doesnt mean dat im not doing nething, or slow…i got my plan n sumtimes i’ve try my best!!!!at the end, she decide not to disturb me nemore, she wun care bout me nemore…[dis is bcos im the 1st person who hurt her like dat.] in the end, i apologise to her…….she take care of me since i was born.no matter how, i should respect or dun raise up my voice…but i cant take it or control nemore, automatically it burst!!!!luckily in the end oso i apologise to her, luckily she accept my apologise!!!

from dis, i totally like with the song titled : "sorry seems to be the hardest work"!!!!

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