my story

this week, everythings went wrong. dis cause me very down, lost…

i get scold from  my fren dat im very ridiculous!!! but wat is de reason? i really dunno.

now im really wondering, at my age now, should i focus on my job???is dat wrong if i plan my future now???i feel lost with dis questions cos recently, i focus on my job, but then, i had loss sumthing more important than my business.:(

guess it really take times to cure….

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Dis week, will b the worst week for me!!!! Yesterday morning, I start my journey back to my poly. I fetch 1 of my fren, Krishna rao who live near by me. Dat morning, is raining but very small 1. I feel freezing cold!!!so in my mind, try asap to get reach to poly n drop down my fren, then I can go back to the rented house at slim river to have a cup of hot tea.

Our journey start as usual. Nothing happen. But when now I think back when v reach Serendah , thk god, I stil alive n writing dis blog. I ride the motor quite fas, is bout 90 km/h. I was trying to overtake a car which the driver drive quite slow. But then suddenly, got a van white in colour come out at my left hand side!!!i was shock!!! The distance between me n the van is only bout an arm!!! the driver is a Indian guy. The front mirror had broke n cause the driver force to look in front by open the mirror at the left door n look in front. I stil remember dat, the driver using the emergency signal. In my mind, I really dun understand y the driver wan to drive so fas when he cant really c due to the broken mirror.:(

Then when the time I reach the rented house at slim river. I receive a call from my eldest bro (hun). he said my third bro ( yoon ) had meet with an accident near at wangsa maju. He wan 2 noe which hospital should my bro go. My mind was blind!!!i jus past through the door of hell, but now sumthing bad had happen to my 3^rd bro!!!i put down my bag n ride my motor back to rawang again. It took me 45 minutes to reach rawang, which usually I spent an hour n even hour 15 minutes. When on my way, im stil wondering is dat all dis is real, or is jus a joking!!!i really cant accept wat is happening rite now. Then I think back the moment when I go back to rawng las week where I saw an accident near serendah, the motorcyclist injured critically. I really scare my bro’l have the same situation!!!!

When I reach home at rawang, my mum was surprised dat I came back. She was very worry with my bro too. Then I drive my 2^nd bro’s car to rush to the general hospital. I keep on thinking, how will my bro b. when on my way to hospital, I cal my hun to ask bout the condition of che yoon. Then he say he stil haven reach there yet. But wat he know is, che yoon cant talk. After hearing dis, I feel more worry. I really duno wat I can do when I reach there!!!

When reach to the GH, I meet my my bro at the ED department. He said che yoon has transfer to the private hospital for imaging for 2^nd time. Then he said che yoon is ok. Not very serious. But jus scare dat got internal bleeding. Then he ask me n my fren, chien won to go to the accident location to wait for a lorry to send the motor back to rawang n check whether v should go for police report.

when I meet my bro at home, I dunno how to describe my feeling. My mum say his chest is swollen. I open his shirt n c, is really. Dat is wat v r worry now. Scare is internal bleeding. But the doc say he is fine, the bone, lung, heart all is normal. I hope wat the doc diagnose is really correct!!!!

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When I on my way back to rawang las week, I saw an accident near by the street at Serendah. the accident is quite serious. Involve with a motor and a kancil. I think the accident is jus happened not more than 15 minutes. Dis is bcos the ambulance is jus arrive n the paramedics stil checking a victim, which I bleive is the motorcyclist. I didn’t stop down n watch. But I hope wat I seen is wrong. Else, really pity the motorcyclist. I think his right eye ball is drop n hang at his face!!!! Im not so sure with wat I seen. Hopefully is wrong!!!!

Las week, when for gathering with my nasional service frens. Feel so glad!!!sum of them, v didn’t meet after the program, so is almost 2 n half years alre. When saw them, they really change alre. Bcome handsome, pretty, funny as weel!!!!

Actually the main purpose me make dat gathering is bcos 1 of them, zhao heng r going to UK for his further study. So v decided to meet out b4 he leave. ( zhao heng,, thx wo. Else dunno need 2 wait till when only most of us can gather.)

Sigh…I drove my dad’s car dat nite for the gathering. Bcos of dat, I guess im the 1 who cos the car brake down at the other day.  summore is at the engine n mayb need 2 spent quite lot of money n time to fix it.  y la!!!!!!!!!!:’(

But got good news oso!!! I get 2 new insurance cases las week!!!!i was so happy. Summore 1 of them is my bro’s fren. When I jus started at dis carieer, my bro was not supporting me. He dun even wan 2 introduce his frens dat didn’t sign up ne policy for me cos scare dat I’l quit from dis job cos is not easy to do it. But now, I really appreciate with wat he had did.  thx my bro!!!!!

So paiseh, imagine im an agent from GE company, then went to my fren’s house to ask for help to print my proposal, where her mum is working as insurance agent too, but different company.  hahahha….. but luckily, her mum didn’t chase me out…thx fwu zian n aunty!!!!:)

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Wat had happened at dis week???im so blur… so down, no mood…I guess mayb bcos of the quizzes dat I had failed las week. Til today, I stil like a dead human. Dun feel like to talk with ne1. but then, I realize sumthin!!!!like in the movie, when the actor in a movie have a huge problem or failed in relationship, they will go for sumthin to try not to remember it. I found dat is really work!!!

For me, I spend most of my time to go for my work, my weekly planning, or even monthly planning. This is he best way to cure my feeling dat have been hurted!!!  most of the time, I’l go to meet my client or stay at office to find sumthing to do. By dis, I wun have ne much time to think bout the past….:)

But sumthing not good bout dis solution is, I end up with tiring!!!when nite time stay at home, I really like a (dead human)². dun have ne mood to on9 or even go out. When watch tv, I can fall asleep oso although watching my favourite show! The day after, I can still feel the tireness….but I cant do nething, only with dis, I can feel better.

So, I really hope those who read dis blog, can suggest me sum other ways dat might b helpful to cure the hurted feeling… if dun’ve, nvm, v can make dis as a forum oso..:)

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i think dis episode’l b the most upset n down 1!!!!

last week, was my 1st time failed 3 of my quizzes out of 4!!!2 is visual audio, another 1 is math. now only i can feel,y those student will give up with their study when they r very hardworking study but stil failed their subject.

for visual audio, im very confused!dunno whether i should blame the lecturer or not. she was pregnant. the way she teach is really like rocket. can u imagine, my class had finish 9 chapter in a month!!! till now, i really dunno wat she is teaching. jus too fast!!! summore sum of the guys in my class really not understanding. when she is teaching, they r talking at the back. so is very hard 2 concentrate n listen wat is she teaching. but stil, the lecturer dun care so much.   

then for maths, i failed it, is ok. cos the question is really tough!!! summore the language in the question very tough. need 2 read few times only can understand a bit.

sigh…jus few like las week is not my week. everything went wrong.

help 1 of my fren to  fix her bicycle. but then my housemate break the gear. so need 2 replace back a new 1, cost RM 25. really going to die!!!!no money,no luck, no time, no happiness, no mood, no……………

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las week was my las week for holiday.cham…stil not in a gud mood to study.

las friday, me n my frens did a road show ( market survey ) at Parkson,Rawang.v did dis for 3 days til sunday. in this 3 days, i really enjoy it!!! from dis experience, i really c how now a days ppl trying to avoid when heard bout insurance!!!:) by the time i walk near by them, i get lot of "cold water"!!!but then, i enjoy another thing, which is focus on wat excuses will they use to run away from u!!!really fun!!! most of them will say bc or their husband/wife/bf/gf r waiting at outside. but got sum very funny, they’l tel me, i’l b back in a short while cos i need 2 put my stuffs, or even i haven start telling them the purpose i approach them, they will answer me, i alre got/tak payah,dah ada!!/thank you, but i dun need. sigh………y la???not even ask them to sign up nething, jus for a moment to ask a few questions only ma!!!!:)

but got 1 i’l unforgetable. i approach a man dat with 2 childrens dat waiting for his wife. then starting, he jus like others, dun wan nething. but then when i tel him i jus need sum of his time to do a survey, then v’l giv them a souvenier for them, then he agree. all was very smooth til his wife had come out. his wife scold him!!!n even take the souvenier dat i gave him n put back to our counter cos she say after take dat souvenier, sure they need 2 buy insurance from us!!!really pai seh dat time, got feel of them were looking at me oso!!:(  after she scold his husband, then he drag his husband go away from me. by the time they leave, dat guy looking at me, he smile n shaking his head. i feel like he is trying to apologize to me for his wife dat not so understanding. then i oso smile with him!

after dat, i look dat with the result dat i’ve survey with dat guy, i realy worry with them. he is the only who working n need 2 bare the whole family. his  2 children were very small, i think haven study at kindergarden oso. jus imagine, if 1 day sumthing bad happen to him n he got no ability to work or to earn money nemore, how bout his family??how bout his children’s future?:(

i think, now the only 1 who can help him is god n her wife. god: to bless him everyday, wife:try to accept the fact dat every person in this world need protection!!!

conclusion, im not satisfy with my result, where i only get to survey with almost 30 person of them. sum of them r my frens. my target were wan 2 get at least 60 persons dat i really dunno at all.so i’ve failed in dis road show!!! but wat i learnt is, how to handle the objection or even control my feeling when i get scold or reject by others!!!! nice experience!!!!

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