my story

As i say on the previous episode, i should write more of my joy moment.haha… proud to say, YES!!!! dis episode, there sumthing proud to share>>>>

las sunday, which is 22/7/2007, is my first time to take part in walking competition. dis competition is organised by MII ( Malaysia Insurance Institute ) at Dataran Merdeka. Me n my fren, steven n Nick, take part in dis competition. Early morning, 5.30 am v went for breakfast, the event start at 7.30am.

by the time v reach dataran merdeka, cant c much ppl there. haha… v dun feel so stress, less competitor, more chance for us to win the price.:)

at 7.30 am sharp, the event begin! 3 of us were stick together at the begining. But after 5 minutes, i’ve been left by steven n nick. My leg was so pain! hahaha.. cant even follow their step n totally left by them! not only them, i dun seem like can over take other ppl as well. from the side to side, many participant over take me, even gal n old ppl oso!!! sad to say dat…:(

but during dat time, i focus on their step. looking on the way they walk. haha… starting, wat i get is keep on swing my hand. is effective, n i can increase my walking speed. but not too far, i feel very tired with my hand n leg. sigh… then again, focus other participants again. guess wat, dis time, wat i get is, shake my waist while trying my best to walk faster. is effective too. but too bad, cant walk for a longer distance, i feel tired oso. by the time i wan to take a rest bcos os the tiredness, dunno y, suddenly feel wan 2 cough. when i cough, i bend my body lower to in front. then, i feel like my leg was moving faster then before dis.

haha…. dat cough really help me a lot. i keep on walking, combine with the other 2 way i try b4 : swing my hand, shake my waist and slightly bend my body forward.:) is effective!:P  i keep on dis walking step. guess wat, i get to overtake steven!!! although he left me quite far, but stil, get to overtake him back, dis prove, with the right walking step, n the strong spirit in mind, stil can get back wat u have lose!:P

by the time reaching dataran merdeka, there is another participant from Uni Asia Life was coming bside me. from his look, he is like around 27 or 28 years old. he say he keep on follow me for the whole competition. haha… unbelieveable!!! then v push each other to overtake more ppl in front of us. but at the same time, keep on remind each other not to give up n oso dun make a foul movement till get disqualify!;P

finally, get to finish with 1 hour for 7 KM!!! and i get no. 15 out of 3000++ participants.

after dis competition, i feel like joging is really easier than walking. cant blif dat i can walk fas for 1 hour non-stop. should keep on my mind bout dis:

          " Not to give up, the success is jus in front of YOU!!!"

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monday morning, feel uneasy with my left leg. n guess wat, now my leg get twisted!!!:’(  every step i walk now, i feel so pain!!! Wuhuhuhuhuhu….:’(

to be continue..

Few days ago, i get a "DOUBLE DAMAGE" in my life. =(

how to say DOUBLE DAMAGE??!!?? guess u all noe bout the stock market. there will be a moment up and down!~~~ but dis time, if wan 2 describe my life with dat, it’ll be a very bad time. the graph will only b decreasing all the time!!!! having two disappointment at a same time!

i hate dis!!! since form 3 till now, when ever i have a bad luck, it’ll continuosly coming with others too. untill today, im still bad in solving or overcome the problem when i face them. especially those problem dat related with family  or relationship. i prefer to jus let it b, let the time to past. but during dis period, it is a very hard time for me! the time is like not moving at all!

im 21 years old dis year. i blif i cannot survive my life in dis way. ssigh…. every1 will have their own problem, but how come other can overcome it easily, but not me?

haha… but the best part is, now i can share sum of this problem with my fren. not keeping it with myself n bcome more careful while choosing fren. at the same time, get the confident to build up the trustworthy between me n my fren.

< i visit other’s frendster profile lately. i like to c wat is their shout out. i found 1 is meaningful and is sound like dis :

" a break up, is jus like a broken mirror. if u try ur best to fix it, still it is broken, and u might hurt urself while the fixing process. there is another way, which is LET IT GO. there is no point for u to fix it since it might hurt urself. y not jus change a new 1??? "

dis shout out is meaningful. it gave me a +ve view in a relationship. when the "mirror" is broken, there might b only 1 or even more than 1 reason dat cause the "mirror" broken. but the main thing is, how u going to look at the cause? will u only be the 1 who blame the other party, not looking at ur own? or u will b the 1 who sit down, n think bout the mistake u had made dat break the "mirror", so dat in the future u wun did dat again?  there will b sum of them who found their " mirror" in 1 time untill they die. but, there are lot of them will break many "mirrors" only can found the 1 dat really suit with them. haha… there r sum of them told me like dis,

" it will b better if my bloved 1 have broke the "mirrors" b4, rather than after the marry with each other only they break the "mirror".

wat u think about dis?=)   >

to be continue…

sick for the whole week. summore cant on9 at home cos forget to pay the streamyx bill!! sigh… my life is never change, when 1 bad thing is happen, it’ll folow by another. hope everything will past very soon!

frens,

wat i should say bout frens? lately, i got a different view of fren. they r jus a normal human being! bcos of that, fren can category in good and bad. is very hard for us to judge whether which category they r, bcos different ppl different view. such in my case, sum time, i feel like there are sum of my fren is fake, but  in other ppl view, they are sincere. so no use for us to judge sum1. in other words, to survive in this community, v should mix all together, but at the same time, v only need 2 learn those good things.

from that, v can improve ourself. when looking at their bad side, take it as a model, dun bcome like part of them. U might agree or disagree with me, but dis world, there r jus lot of them will fake themselve jus bcos wan 2 mix with u, or even wan 2 get the benefit from u! haha…

i dunno y… but jus dat, i feel fren is important. they will affect u a lot. from good to bad; from bad to bcome good; or from bad bcome more worst!!!

to the human being that faking themselve, pls b urself!!!mayb ur fren will like the "ORI" rather then the acting 1.

to be continue…

Las week, completed sum of dis week’s sales. thought it might b a relax week for me. but it seem like totally different.

so down…

the past had a really nice memory yet a nice lesson. like wat wai how told me, take it as  a sweet memory. but too bad lo, i think it is a lesson rather than bcome a memory!

dis lesson, had bcome my impetus to work hard for my future now! there r nothing i can do but only bcome success in my life and my career. there r  no point for me to explain everything. jus dat, im not the kind of person dat u all might think. fed up….=(

i dunno wat i should say now… is really shock n suprised with wat had happened!

hope that everything will b alright very soon.

"i’ve quit from MMU!!!" dis is wat on my mouth since las two week till now. The main reason is, i only get 3 credit hour excemption out of 139 credit hours. another meaning, i need to study for 4 years to get my degree with the cost RM 42000++ ( not including live expenses) me and my coursemate, jefferey, decided to quit from MMU. v both love the environment so much!!! is a really good place to study! but jus too bad, v feel like v deserve for more credit hour transfer in dis university, too bad is totally different.  ( Mayb i should listen to my bro, the private U is a profitable university, is impossible for them to allow u transfer so many subject, although the rules and regulation is listed maximum credit transfer is 30 credit.) wondering, is there ne MMU student who get the maximum credit transfer or not.

during dis few days in MMU, i really apreciate a few of my fren, like irene, kei kei, jimmy and so on..( sorry if ur name is not listed, but stil i apreciate!!!) 

yesterday, i get my diploma result alre. out of my expected, my result had only drop 0.03.  I get 3.58 for my CGPA.

i really scared by the time entering my student ID to get the result on9. dis is because for the whole year, i cant really focus on my study. there are sum mistake dat i had made and it been affect my live. too bad, there r no turning point for me. jus like how i tell me client, "LIFE GOT NO U-TURN!!!" bcause of this, i’ve make a decision to do more homework and study in mind setting. Im sure, my thinking way is very immature, and bcos of dat, i need 2 face dis prob for the past whole year.

Jus now, i chat wit  a really closed fren. She teach n encourage me how to put down the sadness, the unforgetable things. haha… she seem like had success in dat and now, she is enjoying her new life! Now, she is a good Angle for me. i should learn from her!!! learn how to put down everything, learn how to start a new chapter in the journey of my life, learn how to move on, and oso the trustworthy between fren.

she is the person who dun really trust with sum of her fren, or even worst, she is not really good in getting a new fren. but now, she is so different! haha!!! unbelieveable!!!

now in my mind, how come she can do it, but not me? how come she can put down everything dat bother her life, but not me? how come there are sum teenagers who same age with me can b so success in their life but not me? how come my manager can be so succes in his job but not me? how come… how come…

so many how come coming out in my mind. does dis mean im blaming others? dunno!!! haha…. should study bout dis for my homework and oso learn how to overcome my problem in the future, and not only noe how to help or analyze other ppls’ prob, but oso my own prob as well!!!

during my trip to penang, i make a wish in front of a pond and i need 2 throw money into a different wish dat i made.at the end, wat  i get is HAPPINESS. haha… mayb dis is wat i need all this while, to become more happy with my life!!!

now is 2.50am alre….should go to have a good sleep and begin to plan for the NEW CHAPTER of my life later!!!

to the "SHE" dat i mention in this blog, if u did read dis blog, once again, THANK YOU!!! i’ll keep ur word!!! "should put down and move on!!"

to be continue…